It’s a Process
Written by Lorrene Mcclymont on September 4, 2019
Do you ever hear something from God and then end up really surprised when it doesn’t turn out the way you thought it would? That seems to be my life. I like to know how things will happen and how they will work, so when I hear something from God, I tend to fill in the details to complete the plan.
Ever Have It All Figured Out?
This was me this year when I prayed for a word for the year and got discipline. I knew how it was all going to work. Discipline was the word, so that meant being super disciplined in what I ate, in writing, in posting daily. In my head by mid-year, I would be achieving all my goals, setting new ones, smashing out every single thing on my to-do list and be ready for a new word because of course, I would be the most disciplined person in the world.
I sat down to do a bit of a mid-year review of 2019 so far, and of course, this is not what has happened. This year I have struggled with discipline. It seems discipline isn’t just about what I do, but also about what I hear from God and how I act on that. It’s about obedience and letting go of control and allowing God to lead me not the other way around.
We Have To Extend Ourselves Grace
I have also discovered that having discipline as my word has highlighted something else in my life. If I fail once I tend to give up. I become fixated on the result. When I haven’t managed to get up every day when my alarm goes off, I want to just give up on discipline. When I have a to-do list, and I don’t achieve it all, I feel like I have failed. This year I have felt that push to keep trying but to extend myself the same grace God does.
I am finding that there is discipline in continuing to try when you feel like you have failed. There is a discipline in saying, “you know what God, I know I heard this from You, so even though I messed up, I am going to keep going.” I am discovering that discipline doesn’t look exactly how I thought it would. Maybe the process of walking through it and learning more about myself as I do is much more valuable than the result.
Progress Is Better Than Results
Sometimes I think we put so much value on the results that we neglect what we are learning along the way. If I had ended up where I thought I would be, never pressing snooze and achieving my to-do list every time I would be classified as disciplined. If I had never once taken a sneaky Netflix break until all the jobs were done, I would be classified as disciplined. The question is, would I have progressed at all in my walk with God? Would I have learned anything in my journey? About myself? About God? I feel like the answer to that would be no.
Don’t ever make the mistake of the thinking that the process isn’t just as, or more important than the result. It’s in the messy stuff, in the process, that God can show us things we need to address to grow, to mature. The process is sometimes more important than where we end up.