Written by Lorrene Mcclymont on April 23, 2020
I have been spending a lot of time editing photos this week. I am a photographer, you can check out my Instagram at either Hope Images or lorrene_mcclymont. I have a huge backlog to get through, so I figured now was an excellent time to get on with it.
Freeze Rather Than Fail
I found the shot below while I was editing this week. It had me reflecting on how often I procrastinate because fear holds me back. I want to do something, and I put it off, or half do it and sabotage myself. Ultimately that seems like a better choice than doing it and failing. Not just with editing photos. I do this with big life choices such as going to uni, which photography jobs to take, and even speaking up in a meeting if I have a different opinion.
This is of course not a conscious thing, but it is a pattern that I can see in myself. This shot and others from this trip to Tassie are perfect examples. I wanted to edit this one in black and white. The feel is really gloomy and stormy and I thought it would lend itself to black and white really well.
What Will People Think?
Then I started overthinking, well I haven’t worked with black and white much. What if it looks stupid? What if people think it’s awful? What if I think it’s great but it’s actually terrible? What if I don’t do it right? So what did I do? I procrastinated and just didn’t do anything.
Fear Can be Paralysing
It’s so strange how fear can leave you completely frozen. We should never give it so much power in our lives yet somehow, it takes over everything. I am a practical, rational person, yet I will let myself by intimidated into inaction because fear takes hold.
So while I was was editing, I made a decision to edit it, in black and white. I added contrast, I went for drama. I did it the way I wanted to. I didn’t let my fear of what others might think of it stop me. When we let fear freeze us into inaction, the only person we are really hurting is ourselves. We deprive ourselves of the opportunity to grow and develop and experience new things when we end up stuck.
What If I Never Do It At All?
We have to be willing to adventure in our lives, even if the outcome is not what we want. There are so many things that I want to do in a creative sense that scare me. Maybe it’s time to start crossing them off the list. Instead of asking myself what if I screw it up, maybe I should be asking What if I never do it at all?